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A burrito with only beef and cheese [02 Feb 2007|02:39am]
Ugh. Why is it that as soon as I signed on I became instantly overwhelmed and stressed? I seriously need to take a chill pill. Or some kind of pill anyways. Pfft. Like that's going to happen. I don't even take ibuprofen much less something in an attempt to self medicate. It used to be that I didn't need anything because you were the only fix for me. I would shake and tremble without the sensation of you squirming beneath my dermis. Not being able to feel your finger tips tracing the curves of my body...streams of air hot against my neck as you nuzzle my chin despite constant protest.

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*shifty eyes* [20 Oct 2005|04:00pm]
Wow...this feels odd. Do ya know how long it's been since I've written one of these? I just don't see the point anymore. Not to mention I don't have much time on my hands. What with practicing on the piano for a minimum of 30 minutes a day. A shit load of Anatomy notes to go over....I still can't believe that I'm taking 5 honors courses this year. What the hell was I smokin? And all of the other homework that I have to do. Working 5 days a week at the hell that is known as Happy Harry's. My boyfriend talking about marrying me when we haven't in fact even met...there are so many issues with that statement alone. And our club is up and coming...btw our next meeting will be held on Tuesday, October 25th in Mr. Masiello's room...#111. Come join us and see what all the hype is about.

I really just wrote in here because I got an email saying someone replied to an entry that I wrote like 5 months ago. But it was anonymous...*shrugs*

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Another fun Survey....sorry about the movie list in advance [03 May 2005|05:33pm]
[ mood | sick ]

1. Ever been so drunk you blacked out: Nope. Too cool for that.
2. Missed school cuz it was raining: Yeah, I went out and danced in it.
3. Put a body part on fire for amusement: Nope.
4. Been hurt emotionally: All the time
5. Kept a secret from everyone: Nope. You all know something different about me.
6. Had an imaginary friend: Not that I recall
7. Cried during a movie: Mhmm. "My Girl" The part when she freaks out at Thomas J's funeral. "He can't see without his glasses! Someone give 'im his glasses!" *tear* I love that movie.
8. Had a crush on a teacher: Not really. But the Male Teacher Pagaent was something else. *fans self*
9. Ever thought an animated character was hot? A few anime based video games and Batman in the "Batman Superman Movie" *purrs*
11. Been on stage: The majority of my young life. I like being a nut and making others laugh.
12. Cut your hair: Yes. Believe it or not it used to be down to the middle of my back.

13. Shampoo: Proclaim's Tea Tree Mint
14. Soap: Dove
15. Color: Purple, silver, red, black, and lime/neon green
16. Day / Night: Most definately night
17. Summer / Winter: Neither. I prefer Fall
18. Lace or Satin: How about Satin with a lacey trim?
19. Cartoon: Daria, Family Guy, Speedracer, Spongebob Squarepants, The Simpsons, The Smurfs, The Angry Beavers, The Flinstones, Jabberjaw, Clone-High USA, Freakazoid, Underdog, Teenaged Mutant Ninja Turtles, South Park, Futurama, Hong Kong Phuey, Drawn Together, Yogi Bear, Transformers, Robot Chicken, The Jetsons, Batam, Super Friends, The Snorks, Justice League, SpiderMan, Ahhhhh...Real Monsters, Johnny Quest, Josie and the Pussycats, Godzilla and Godzuki, X-Men, The Amazing Chan Clan, Captain Planet...the list goes on.
20. Food: Poptarts, doritos, sushi, cheese fries, mac-n-cheez, mountain dew, pizza, chicken cheese steak, fruity pebbles, spaghetti...I'm gonna stop while I'm ahead.
21. Advert: The Clapper commercial. ENZYTE! "Hey it's smilin' Bob! The host with the most you might say." The Red Bull commercial where the bird poops on the guy, then he drinks a red bull and the last thing you see is him flying above the bird and the sound of his belt buckle....classic!
22. Movie: James Bond (every single one), The Matrix (trilogy), Lord of the Rings (trilogy), National Lampoon's: Animal House and Van Wilder & Vegas/Euroupean/Christmas Vacation, Garden State, Airplane, Star Wars (entire series), Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure, Stand By Me, Young Frankenstein, The Royal Tenenbaums, The Three Amigos, Gone in 60 Seconds, Emperors New Groove, Saving Silverman, X-Men, Spider-Man, Blazing Saddles, Biodome, Police Academy (the first 3), My Girl, The Iron Giant, Malibu's Most Wanted, Spaceballs, The girl next door, Office Space, Dogma, Can't Buy Me Love, Good Burger, Serial Mom, All of Me, The Jerk, American Pie, What's Eating Gilbert Grape, House of Cards, Oxygen, A Christmas Story, Little Man Tate, Loverboy, The Toy, Hear No Evil See No Evil, Roxanne, The Parenthood, Underworld, The Sandlot, Rookie of the Year, She's All That, Never Been Kissed, 10 Things I Hate About You, Drive Me Crazy, Not Another Teen Movie, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, The Virgin Suicides, Hollywood Shuffle, The Professional, Revenge of the Nerds, One Crazy Summer, Road/Euro/Boat Trip, The Usual Suspects, Se7en, Dumb and Dumber/Dumberer, Fast and the Furious, Chicago, Alice in Wonderland, White Chicks, Interview with a Vampire, Kill Bill (both volumes), Reality Bites, The Hot Chick, The Addams Family, The nightmare before christmas, Edward Scissorhands, Batman (entire series), and A Night At the Roxbury.
23. Ice-Cream: Chocolate chip cookie dough, cookies & cream
24. Subject: Sex
25. 'normal' drink : Miami Vice, Vanilla Faygo and Pennsylvania Dutch Orange Creme
26. Person to talk to online: Jess

27. Wearing: gray sweatpants, blue skivvies and my blue "Brooklyn" hoodie
28. Hair is: A right mess!
29. I'm feeling: Stuffy
30. Eating: Nothing at the moment
31. Drinking: Tea
33. Listening to: No Doubt
34. Cried: No
35. Worn a skirt: No
36. Met someone new: That's a negative
37. Cleaned your room: I need to but no.
38. Done laundry: That was 2 days ago
39. Drove a car: Nope. Mom won't let me go anywhere because I'm sick

40. Yourself: Not really
41. Your friends: Of course. Or they wouldn't be my friends.
42. Santa Claus: Never. The idea of an old fat white guy trying to shimmy down my chimney just screams Johhny Cockrin! *is sad remembering his recent passing, pours a 5th of Jack* You will be missed!
43. Tooth Fairy: Never. The idea of an old white woman with wings stealing my teeth makes me wish Cockrin were still alive so I could sue her decrepit ass.
44. Destiny/Fate: Not at all. Things happen for a reason.
46. Ghosts: I'm not going to get into that again. A simple no will suffice
47. UFO's: I never thought long enough on the topic to decide whether or not I believe in them

48. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Nope....it seems I am destined to be single.
49. Like anyone: I've loved someone for the past three years.
50. Who's the loudest friend: All of my friends are loud except for Danielle and Assia
51. Who's the shyest: I'm not sure. If they're your friends they are typically comfortable around you so you see the true them not the watered down bottled them.
53. Who do you go to for advice: Ariane or Sam
54. Who do you cry to: Ariane
55. When did you cry the most: Typically when I see the person I care about with other people who aren't worth their time
56. What's the best feeling in the world: Spending time with the people that know you the best, falling asleep in your "lover's" arms, or just dancing in the rain
57. Worst feeling: Being undesirable, failing at anything, or plain old stomach viruses
58. Favorite knickers? My butt hugging jeans with the huge farmer cuffs, or my old jeans with the safetypins up the sides and the two "SOUNDS" patches on the legs
59. HOW MANY GUYS/CHICKS HAVE U KISSED? I've never had a true kiss. I don't like kissing people just because I'm bored. That's how we all get mono
60. how many people have u mugged? O.o wha? None in this current lifetime
61. a. have u been in love ? b. with who ? c. are u currently in love?
A.yes, although before when I was younger I thought it was to Jeff but that was a mere crush
B.That person shall remain nameless
C. Si

last cigarette: I've only had the candy kind when I was a kid
last car ride: Last Sunday to celebrate mom's birthday
last kiss: *shrugs* Who knows how long ago that was? And it was quite awkward. The person missed my lip and cut my gums with their braces so I guess you can't really call that a kiss
last good cry: Last Wednesday
last library book checked out: "Lost Souls" by Poppy Z. Brite
last movie seen: House of Cards (just saw it this afternoon for the first time in years)
last book read: *says with German accent* Ze Vest Veeesexual Errrotika (The Best Bisexual Erotica)
last cuss word uttered: !Starbucks!
last beverage drank: Tea
last food consumed: PB&J <---Assia had that too! What are the odds!?!
last crush: Kevin...or was it Mike? I dunno. Let's go with Kevin
last phone call: Mutter
last tv show watched: Boy Meets World
last time showered: Noon
last shoes worn: Red and black chucks
last cd played: No Doubt's Rock Steady
last item bought: My tubular Anakin Skywalker/ Darth Vader lightsaber! *does a jig*
last downloaded: Bejeweled 2
last annoyance: Being sick
last disappointment: Sam's mom
last soda drank: Sprite
last thing written: A jounral entry
last key used: The down arrow
last word spoken: Hella
last sleep: This morning. Yay for ditching school!
last im: TSJCSHHH
last sexual fantasy: Am I supposed to write out the fantasy or when I last had it? Not sure about that one but if you all really wanna know I'm sure someone will ask
last weird encounter: Watching The L Word with mi madre. Talk about awkward.
last ice cream eaten: Ben & Jerry's Chocolate chip cookie dough with "he Bucc" and Karl
last time amused: This afternoon watching Kevin Hart's stand up with mom
last time wanting to die: For the past couple of months. But I've come to terms with that. That would be the loser way out by just quitting on life. Sorry to say but most kids that committ suicide are pussies. I'm sure someone wants to challenge me on that.
last time in love: Currently
last time hugged: Mom hugged me this afternoon to try and make me feel better. Moms are really great sometimes.
last time scolded: All the time whether it be by mother or teachers
last time resentful: Whenever I take forever to do what I need to do, like now for instance. I really need to do my chem project...oh well.
last chair sat in: Dad's green computer chair
last lipstick used: Mocha cappuccino lip gloss
last underwear worn: blue bikini cut hanes
last bra worn: It's just black. Sorry mine aren't all amazing and glamorous
last shirt worn: My V-Neck black and white collar one.
last time dancing: Right now to Gwenny Gwen Gwen...*sings* "I'm really missing it in so many ways, I anticipate us makin out!"
last poster looked at: My cliche rebelious "keep out" sign on my door. Yah know I just had to have it!
last show attended: That piece of crap show that the middle schoolers put on. At least I got myself a free hair due by Miss Meg. I look great as a black Pippy.
last webpage visited: www.lyricscafe.com

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Pondering over the Sith [03 May 2005|04:46pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

Chaz and I are making a list of names for her so we can figure out which one sounds the best. Here are a few we have already come up with:

Mistress Sith
Mistress of Seduction
Mistress of Malice
Malicious Sith
Seductive Sith

Blah....Who knows? So far I like Mistress of Malice and it's a maybe on Sithstress. Hmmm...you guys let me know if you have any ideas. I have to work on the actual background of the character and I need to wrangle up some money so I can acquire everything to complete this project

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Needs some new music [02 May 2005|06:43pm]
[ mood | groggy ]

Man how many times have I said that I need to make a mixed cd yet I still have yet to? Maybe I ought to make an actual list and then things will begin from there.

1. Santos Inocentes- "Santos Inocentes"
2. Cato Salsa Experience- "Deadbeat"
3. They Might Be Giants- "C is for Conifers"
4. British Sea Power- "It Ended on an Oily Stage"
5. VHS or Beta- "Into the Fire"
6. The Cardigans- "My Favorite Game"
7. Local H- "Everyone Alive"
8. The Ramones- "KKK Took My Baby Away"
9. Beck- "Hell Yes"
10. Sir Elton John- "Benny and the Jets"
11. Fatboy Slim- "Weapon of Choice"
12. Styx- "Mademoiselle"
13. Bravery- "Unconditional"
14. Dogs Die in Hot Cars- "I Love You 'Cause I Have To"
15. The Futureheads- "First Day"
16. Volumen Cero- "Autos"
17. The Getup Kids- {Not sure which song I want on this particular mix}
18. Dave Mathew's Band- "Gravedigger"
19. Saves the Day- "At Your Funeral" and "Freakish" and "Shoulder to the Wheel"
20. Smashing Pumpkins- "Bullet with Butterfly Wings"
21. Marcy's Playground- "Sex and Candy"
22. Rammstein- "Amerika"
23. The Butchies- "Send Me You"
24. Tears for Fears- "Shout"
25. Halo Friendlies- "Acid Wash"
26. Violent Femmes- "Add it Up"
27. The Beatles- "Across the Universe"
28. Blondie- "Rapture"
29. The Police- "Roxanne"
30. The Look Machine- "Fanatic"
31. Modest Mouse- "A Manic Depressive Named Laughing Boy"
32. Hot Action Cop- "Don't Want Her to Stay" and "Fever for the Flava"
33. Oasis- "Wonderwall"
34. Cafe Tacuba- "Dejate Caer"
35. Run DMC- "Tricky"
36. Weezer- "Paper Face"
37. No Pun Intended- "Apartment's Burning"
38. Red Number40- "Hybrid Monkey"
39. Natalie Imbruglia- "Torn"
40. Jealousycurve- "Appreciated"

Wow what an odd mixture that would be...but I guess that would work for me.

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Freakin' Stoked am I! [02 May 2005|05:48pm]
[ mood | nerdy ]

I dunno whether or not I had the opportunity to share the wonderful news with all of you but I just got a lightsaber and it's so incredible!!! I bought the Obi Wan Kenobi saber and then once I opened the package I saw a little booklet that had pictures of the other collectibles and inside was the most amazing thing I have ever seen....a red saber! Well considering how my outfit is red and black that's what I was looking for all along so mom whipped that love wagon around and we sped back to Toys R' Us to pick up my perfect lightsaber. So I ended up searching through tons of discarded weapons eventually finding the last un-damaged lightsaber in the bunch and as I held it above my head I swear the clouds parted and there was a magnificent aura about the box. *holds it tightly, tearing as I recall the event* I am now the proud owner of an Anakin Skywalker/ Darth Vader lightsaber that turns from blue to red to symbolize his transformation to the darkside. *cheers* I had to test it out by running around the house chasing Baby with all of the lights off so I could watch it glow. So I thwacked her ever so gently and it gave off the most amazing sound effect!!! Can't wait until the 18th! If all goes as planned and the character I made up {yes I took time out of my life to create a SW character for the opening night} turns out to be as great as I had hoped *crosses fingers* I ought to be taking a ton of pictures that night. The perfect ending to an astonishing evening would be if I dueled with a fellow nerd and we met up later on or something to that dorky line....*swoon*

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You can be overwhelmed and underwhelmed but can you just be whelmed?...I think so in Europe [02 May 2005|05:18pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

Alright so I now officially hate school and I see no reason why I should return. I understand that there is only a year left but it seems as if this year is never going to end so how will we ever make it to our senior years. Ugh...not to mention this month is uber chaotic.

The Month of May:

  • 4th- Chemistry lesson & Vocal concert
  • 5th- Cinco de Mayo; who knows where I'll spend it this year?
  • 7th- SAT's & Flower market
  • 8th- Justin's Birthday
  • 10th- Weezah's "Make Believe" drops & nail app @ 5:30
  • 11th- Last day to hand in Spanish translations
  • 13th- Walk for Life, Prom, & English papers due
  • DSTPs sometime this week
  • 17th- Troy turns the big 1-7!! Economics paper due. (or maybe it's the 27th)
  • 18th- Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith!!! Yay for midnight shows!
  • 21st- Troy's partay & 2 partylite shows
  • 23rd- Yearbook signing party
  • 24th-Spanish project to present
  • 28th- Partylite show
  • 30th- No school! Time to relax.
  • Not to mention my room must be cleaned before I do anything socially

I definately need to find a job to not only buy presents but to pay mom back for all of the SW expenses on creating my project and for buying my prom ticket. Mom said that if I receive an 1850 on my SATs that I can get my eyebrow pierced which will cost money, along with my 3rd holes and my left cartilage. Goodness, I really need to begin whoring myself out or something because lord knows I don't have the time to begin a tutoring service. Or maybe I will go with my original plan from Economics and sell handjobs....*ponders*

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!!GAWD!! My lips hurt really bad! !!GAWD!! [23 Apr 2005|11:06pm]
[ mood | horny ]

Asi that one was for you.

So I'm sitting here at Aunt Debbie's house just minding my own business on gaia. Doing a lot of PM-ing, IM-ing, talking to a few naughty girls when I actually just got done reading some of "The Little Unicorn" and I was getting all hor-nae when all of a sudden Ingrid and the girls plus two more come walking in. WTF!!! I was on the vurge of exploding to the fullest! So frustrated times 2!!!! There is some over due attention needed over here. I've been looking for a relationship and although I am hesitant about persuing the one I desire I could atleast you a little "buddy" to keep me occupied before hand. I'm to the point of thinking about taking out a personal add.

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?Como...? [10 Apr 2005|03:53pm]
[ mood | pondering ]

It's odd looking around at not only my behavior, but mine in comparison to everyone else's. It's as if I am maturing at a more rapid pace...but in all of the wrong places. After all these years of bullshitting my way through school I have finally decided to buckle down under the pressure and just give in. I ignore my friends and the joyous things I would typically do to ensure that my work is done. I don't laugh as much these days. For a while I thought it was because I was depressed, and slowly as I began to once more gain my bearings I still couldn't find the humor in certain things. Is it that I'm maturing? Am I becoming more and more like my mother when I fight so hard to maintain the spirited personality of my father? Why do I become annoyed so easily? Is it just a regular case of teenaged hormones? Is there an easier way to uphold my grades and friendships? Are my priorities out of whack? I've tried so hard over the past couple of months to do the best I can and make sure I graduate next year content with my highschool records. Have I made any self progress over the past 3 years? What do I have to show for it? Is it certain that my current relationships will always be important to me? What going to happen if I fail once I'm out of school? Will college honestly be worth my time? What if I never find someone? Am I not worthy of being with? Is being angsty and living in the moment always the right answer? Am I too juvenile? Do I hold onto irrelevant thoughts? Is wrong to think about the future instead of dwelling on the present? Is it wrong that I would rather work and begin saving up for future finances than go to school? Is there anything I will do well enough to form a career out of it?

God it's beautiful outside. I ought to go to the park or something. Maybe do something to get my mind off of all these asinine questions.

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Stolen From Mr. Hendrickson Himself [09 Apr 2005|06:28pm]
[ mood | restless ]

  • What is your name? Black Woman <- my alias
  • Are you named after anyone? I get my birth name from a DuPont fabric. HONEST!
  • What's your screename? Syndel801
  • Would you name a child of yours after you? Although I don't care for it I probably would just so they can be teased the same way I was! This is why I am spawning no one.
  • If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be? Probably Nichola or Dimitri. Basically because they are both European and quite sexay. Not to mention Nichola was an evil prince.
  • If you could switch names with a friend who would it be? I would never switch my name with one of my friends because my name is original.
  • Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly? Of course! Qina, Qianna, Quina, Quiana, Quianna, Kiana, Kianna, Kiyanna, Keyanna, Oiana, and Alexandra.
  • Would you drop your last name if you became famous? I would change my entire name if I became famous. I might do it famous or not.


  • Your gender: Female
  • Straight/Gay/Bi: Bi
  • Single? Yes
  • If not, do you want to be? Who wants to be alone?
  • Birthdate: October 8, 1988
  • Your age: 16
  • Age you act: Mostly 13, but 22 when I have to be
  • Age you wish you were: 17, I would be out of school and it would make finding a job easier
  • Your height: 5'5 1/2''
  • Eye color: Brown
  • Happy with it? It would be cool if they were hazel but I don't dwell on it. 
  • Hair color: Dark Brown
  • Happy with it? It's a good color. It's actually lighter because of the sun.
  • Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: righty, but I guess that all depends on what I'm doing. DIRTY! lol.
  • Your living arrangement: Mom and Dad.
  • Your family: Mom, Dad, my cat Muffin and kitten/dog/turtle Baby.
  • Have any pets? Cats: Muffin and Baby.
  • Whats your job? Hopefully Rita's. They are supposed to call me somtime tonight. *crosses fingers*
  • Piercings? Two holes in the ear. Wanted: 3rd holes, a transversal in my right ear, left eye brow, tongue, and maybe bottom lip/nipples.
  • Tattoos? Not yet. Wanted: A giant dragon on my entire back, and a dragon wrapping around my ankle.
  • Obsessions? WEEZAH!
  • Addictions? Everything pop tarts and Faygo.
  • Do you speak another language? A little Espanol, a very tiny bit of German...nothing fluent.
  • Have a favorite quote? "We are here from the planet of the toes and we bring you produce!"
  • Do you have a webpage? A crappy one from freshman year. Chech it out: www.geocities.com/getupconfessional

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it

  • Do you live in the moment? Of course! Being angsty is ma style.
  • Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? Nah not really. That is one of my major downfalls. Struggling with that right now.
  • Do you have any secrets? Life is too short to keep secrets. Everyone knows something different about me. SO DON'T YOU HAVE A MEETING TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT THEY ARE!
  • Do you hate yourself? Not completely. I just don't like the way I react to certain things.
  • Do you like your handwriting? Sometimes
  • Do you have any bad habits? Cursing, lying, being tactless, being lazy,  being talkative, putting myself down...wow I'm going to stop while I'm ahead.
  • What is the compliment you get from most people? "You have awesome nails!"
  • If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? "Taste All the Forbidden Fruits in Life...Literally"
  • What's your biggest fear? Waking up one morning and realizing that I am completely alone. Getting down to my ideal size and then noticing that my weight wasn't the reason why I'm single...it's my horrible personality.
  • Can you sing? I try.
  • Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? Never. I don't believe in false advertising.
  • Are you a loner? Not cool enough to be a loner.
  • What are your #1 priorities in life? To find a career that suits me and along the way stumble onto love.
  • If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Probably. I'd be like look at that dork who just fell again!
  • Are you a daredevil? *in a french accent* But of course.
  • Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? I hate my lack of confidence and being so indecisive with just about everything in my life.
  • Are you passive or agressive? agressive
  • Do you have a journal? yes
  • What is your greatest strength and weakness? Strength- My ability to be honest. Weakness- Not being able to teleport.
  • If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? My weight. I think after that changes I would have enough confidence to obtain everything else on my list.
  • Do you think you are emotionally strong? Not all. My emotions would be my other downfall. 
  • Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? Not at all. It's what makes me who I am today.
  • Do you think life has been good so far? I have caring parents, my grades have been great for the majority of my life, a house, an awesome family and friends that care. So yeah, I would venture to say so.
  • What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? Don't take things so literally.
  • What do you like the most about your body?My hair and calves. Most tubbies have cankles but I good sir do not.
  • And least? The rest of my body. 
  • Do you think you are good looking? No. I honestly feel hideous.
  • Are you confident? When it comes to school I am. But physically, no.
  • What is the fictional character you are most like?  Gordie Lachance from "Stand By Me"
  • Are you perceived wrongly? Only by people who don't truly know me.

Do You...

  • Smoke? nope
  • Do drugs? nope
  • Read the newspaper? Do the comics count?
  • Pray? Nope
  • Go to church? Not anymore 
  • Talk to strangers who IM you? Yes
  • Sleep with stuffed animals? I have one or two on the bed bud I don't snuggle them.
  • Take walks in the rain? More like dancing.
  • Talk to people even though you hate them? I have been known to, but that is how I gained new friends. They probably aren't as bad as you think.

Do you apperciate

  • Drive? Yes
  • Like to drive fast? Love it!

Would or Have You Ever?

  • Liked your voice? Not really
  • Hurt yourself? Not intentionally
  • Been out of the country? Yes
  • Eaten something that made other people sick? Yes
  • Been in love? As we speak
  • Done drugs? Nope
  • Gone skinny dipping? Never had the opportunity
  • Had a medical emergency? Yes. (remember when I kept being hit in the head with all of those different types of balls in gym? good times fo shrimp)
  • Had surgery? no
  • Ran away from home? Once, I went across the street to the playground and hung out there all night staring at the stars. I eventually went home about 2 hours later because it was snowing.
  • Played strip poker? no
  • Gotten beaten up? no
  • Beaten someone up? no
  • Been picked on? I used to be picked on all of the time. I was honestly picked on about 2 weeks ago.
  • Been on stage? YES
  • Slept outdoors? yes
  • Thought about suicide? a few times but realized I wanted to see what would happen in the end.
  • Pulled an all nighter? YES! I make it a point to do it every summer. I swear you have an epiphany.
  • If yes, what is your record? 2  days and 23 hours. Mom just let me fall asleep on the 24th hour even though she knew I was trying to change the world by breaking my old record.
  • Gone one day without food? Yes. Weird right? It was on one of the many times when I had a stomach virus.
  • Talked on the phone all night? yes
  • Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex? yes
  • Slept all day? Yep, again when I had that virus.
  • Killed someone? not that you know of... 
  • Made out with a stranger? nope, I try not to be a slut...j/k
  • Had sex with a stranger? nope
  • Thought you're going crazy? For the last 4 months
  • Kissed the same sex? YES! And it was better than the opposite. With lip gloss it is amazing!
  • Done anything sexual with the same sex? yes
  • Been betrayed? The story of my life 
  • Had a dream that came true? Nope
  • Broken the law? yes
  • Met a famous person? yes
  • Have you ever killed an animal by accident? I would never do such a thing! 
  • On purpose? That's absurd! Good day to you sir! I said good day! 
  • Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? Guilty!
  • Stolen anything? Besides my usual pens and occassional sweets from like people's houses. Nothing serious. 
  • Been on radio/tv? Been on radio, tv, and the front page of the newspaper.
  • Been in a mosh-pit? Yes, it's pretty awesome because you get to beat people in the face and you don't get into trouble for it.
  • Had a nervous breakdown? Once
  • Bungee jumped? Not yet
  • Had a dream that kept coming back? Yeah, I've had the same dream since I was about 4 and another one since I was about 9.


  • Belive in life on other planets? not really
  • Miracles? yes
  • Astrology? no. pure shite!
  • Magic? yes *sings* Do you believe in magic!?!
  • God? yes
  • Satan? yes
  • Santa? no
  • Ghosts? no
  • Luck? no
  • Love at first sight? yes
  • Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)? Yes. Without bad how would we know that something is enjoyable.
  • Witches? yes
  • Easter bunny? No. But the Easter Beagle is no myth my friends.
  • Believe its possible to remain faithful forever? No, humans are naturally flaud, hence Adam and Eve.
  • Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow? yes
  • Do you wish on stars? yes

Deep Theological Questions

  • Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? My traditional view of heaven and hell is different considering that I come from a Jehovah's Witness household. Since our bibles vary I would say that I believe that Heaven is the residence of God and the other holy spirits while hell is indeed a myth. Once you die that is it. Game over.
  • Do you think God has a gender? The bible states that man was created in his own image so yes I believe that God is unfortunately a man. *shakes fist* Why can't you be a woman?
  • Do you believe in organized religion? I believe it I just don't agree with it. Who's to say what the line between religion and a cult is?
  • Where do you think we go when we die? In a grave until we basically rot and provide food for the plants/insects. After this the Armagedon ("judgement day") occurs and Jehovah decides who is worthy of paradise and if he feels you weren't given a fair shot at proving yourself he grants you that second chance...but we shall save this little chat for another day.


  • Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? Of course. Life wouldn't be the same without them. I have gay people in my family. 
  • Who is your best friend? I have a few: Sam R., Ariane, and Karl. (there are others that I consider my close friends but the ones listed are the people that would never let me down.)
  • Who's the one person that knows most about you? Sam  R.
  • What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? Dad told me, "Everything in life has a formula, so stick to "the formual" and you'll be fine."
  • Your favourite inside joke? If I told you it wouldn't be inside anymore.
  • Thing you're picked on most about? My weight, nerdyness, and the fact that I am whiter than white. So I just try to embrace it.
  • Who's your longest known friend? Ariane, but if she doesn't count because she is family, then Dan. 
  • Newest? Daniel
  • Shyest? All of my friends are crazy and loud.
  • Funniest? Ariane and Gaby.
  • Sweetest? Napolski
  • Closest? Ariane
  • Weirdest? Sausage. But that's why I love her! 
  • Smartest? Sam R.
  • Ditziest? Assia
  • Friends you miss being close to the most? Tiffany and Assia 
  • Last person you talked to online? Dan 
  • Who do you talk to most online? Dan and Assia
  • Who are you on the phone with most? Karl
  • Who do you trust most? Ariane
  • Who listens to your problems? Sam R. (Karl when we speak on the phone but considering that he is of the male persuasion I don't that he listens.lol) 
  • Who do you fight most with? Karl, but it's because we care so much about one another.
  • Who's the nicest? Daniel
  • Who's the most outgoing? Sam R. and Troy
  • Who's the best singer? Karl, but don't tell Gaby.
  • Who's on your shit-list? All of the blondes in our grade except for Heather. She bags me up. Crazy whities these days. 
  • Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? All of the time, the best relationships as far as romance are created from friendships.
  • Who's your second family? The Dimitrovas 
  • Do you always feel understood? Not really.
  • Who's the loudest friend? Gaby, but Sam when she is laughing.
  • Do you trust others easily? Typically, no. I've been hurt to often to just open automatically open up.
  • Who's house were you last at? Sam R.'s
  • Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: Sam R.'s 
  • Do your friends know you? For the most part.
  • Friend that lives farthest away: Ariane....New Castle

Love and All That

  • Do you consider love a mistake? Not at all, it warms you.
  • What do you find romantic? When someone sends you something just because they were thinking of you, not because it is a designated day. 
  • Turn-on? Hair, eyes, thick women, being outgoing and a little nutty, tattoos, peircings, and confidence 
  • Turn-off? Lack of hygene, narcissism, smoking, doing drugs, and being abusive
  • First kiss? First gay kiss: Sam during some odd moment when we were watching "So I married an Axe Murderer."
  • If someone you had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel? I would feel bad at first but would go out on a date with them to see what they were like in their true element. 
  • Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going out? Doesn't really matter. The point of going out on a date is to get to know them. 
  • Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out? Never really thought about it. But it would be nice if it were accepted for a girl to ask another girl out.
  • Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? Yes. Someone's personality has the ability to change your mind on whether or not they are physically attractive.
  • Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? No, but that is because the only members of the opposite sex that have ever told me so were all gay. Or drunk. Or a tubby chaser with bithces in every state. Great.....*shrugs*
  • What is best about the opposite sex? Tummy trails 
  • What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? Being oblivious to your feelings. 
  • What's the last present someone gave you? Sam gave me a matching earing/necklace set which apparently looks like crayola colored sperm. lmao! 
  • Are you in love? I think....
  • Do you consider your significant other hot? I don't have one yet, but I probably am attracted to them if I end up with them.

Who Was the Last Person...

  • That haunted you? Natascha. She kept following me around school.
  • You wanted to kill? Mrs. Fanny for being so constantly rude towards me. 
  • That you laughed at? Dad
  • That laughed at you? Dan
  • That turned you on? Sam R.
  • You went shopping with? Mom, Dad, Ariane, Aunt Debbie and Aunt Naomi 
  • That broke your heart? Sam R.
  • To disappoint you? Assia
  • To ask you out? No one has ever asked me out, except Troy I think. That was a fun 2 weeks hun. We ought to do it again sometime. *smirks* 
  • To make you cry? Sam R. 
  • To brighten up your day? Sam R., Ariane and Dad
  • That you thought about? Mom, she left for Nueva York earlier. 
  • You saw a movie with? Ariane
  • You talked to on the phone? Karl
  • You talked to through IM/ICQ? Dan
  • You saw? Sam R.
  • You lost? My cousin Brent was in a car accident about a year ago.

Right This Moment...

  • Are you going out? not today
  • Will it be with your significant other? don't have one
  • Or some random person? don't have one of those either
  • What are you wearing right now? Someone's dirty! My striped lounge pants and a Linkin Park shirt 
  • Body part you're touching right now: My eye. Dang allergies! *shakes fist* 
  • What are you worried about right now? Whether or not I got this job at Rita's 
  • What book are you reading? "The Named"
  • What's on your mousepad? DELL
  • Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: anxious, lazy, lonesome, confused, passionate
  • Are you bored? Not really. I'm chill 
  • Are you tired? A little
  • Are you talking to anyone online? Not anymore 
  • Are you talking to anyone on the phone? Tatiana
  • Are you lonely or content? lonely
  • Are you listening to music? Yup: After the Fire's- "Der Komissar" I swear I am not taking another survey. I say that and everytime I still do. My eyes hurt!!! 

(Kommentiere Ich)

Shout Out to All of Ma Bitches! [09 Apr 2005|06:16pm]
[ mood | dancy! ]

Jitter Bug! Jitter Bug!

Okay kids, I want you to sing out until your little hearts are content. Be sure to break a leg and a few hearts if you have the extra energy. Good luck to all of you associated with FAME!

Troy, Sam, Britt, Karl and Latino Sensation!!! Let's hear it for my babies! *starts doin footloose moves*


Remind me to bring in my Ultimate 80's Pop Hits so we can get our grooves back!

(Kommentiere Ich)

[09 Apr 2005|05:49pm]
[ mood | I gotta potty! ]

[x] been drunk.
[ ] smoked pot.
[x] kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[x] kissed a member of the same sex
[x] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[ ] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[ ] been in a fist fight.
[x] had a threesome - kissing or otherwise (only kissing)
[x] snuck out of your parent's house
[ ] been arrested.
[ ] made out with a stranger.
[x] stole something from your job. (I love pens and stamps!)
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] been to japan
[x] went on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[x] had a crush on a teacher. (it wasn't a crush per say, his accent was just awesome!)
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe.
[x] skipped school.CLASS (all of the time)
[ ] thrown up from drinking
[x] lost your sibling. (it was a cousin, I am an only child)
[x] played 'clue'. (frickin love that game!)
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] went ice skating.
[ ] cheated on a bf/gf.
[ ] been cheated on.
[x] had a sweet sixteen.
[ ] had a car.
[x] drove.

Do you...
[ ] have a bf.
[ ] have a gf.
[x] have a crush.
[ ] feel loved. (I've never felt honestly loved)
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[ ] have a dog. (my cat thinks she is but I guess that doesn't count)
[x] have your own room.
[x] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[x] listen to soul.
[x] listen to techno.
[x] listen to reggae.
[x] paint your toenails.
[x] have more than 1 best friend
[x] get good grades.
[x] play an instrument. (recorders kick!)
[x] have slippers.
[x] wear boxers.
[x] wear black eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color yellow. (only neon yellow)
[XXX] cyber. (I am an expert)
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[x] have long hair. (for a black girl)
[ ] have short hair.
[x] have a cell phone.
[x] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.

Are you...
[x] ok.
[x] bored.
[x] happy.
[x] bilingual.
[x] white.
[x] black.
[ ] mexican.
[ ] hawaiian
[ ] short.
[x] tall.
[ ] grounded.
[x] sick. (emotionally)
[x] lazy.
[x] single.
[ ] taken.
[x] looking.
[ ] not looking.
[x] talking to someone.
[x] IMing someone.
[x] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[x] sleepy.
[x] annoyed.
[ ] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[x] on the phone.
[ ] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[x] in your pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[x] listening to music

(Kommentiere Ich)

Quote Moment [06 Apr 2005|05:05pm]
[ mood | chill ]

Look at this pretzel. Now look at the stars...some people say that they're made of billions and billions of hot gases but I think it's just God's salt and he is waiting to eat us.

(Kommentiere Ich)

Living in the Moment [06 Apr 2005|04:57pm]
[ mood | Reminiscing ]

I just got done watching girl next door -which by the way is some funny stuff- and I noticed that there were a bunch of great movies on right now but I finally decided on "Can't Hardly Wait" because c'mon, seriously, it's a classic for cryin out loud! I don't know how I allowed myself to forget about the great teenie bopper flicks of the 90's and dwell so much on the awesome stuff of the 80's. Don't get me wrong, that stuff really kicked, but the 90's single handedly took the teen scene to a new level. Well anywho, whenever I watch the movie I think of Dan because he used to always go around saying, "These are memories frozen in time people!" *chuckles* Yeah good times fo shrimp! And who could forget cute little Seth Green as Kenny "Special K" Fisher? Although he was somewhat of an obnoxious skwigger I would still hook up with him. The funny thing is that this is one of my favorite crazy teenaged movies and it's made by the same person who produced one of the crappiest movies in the world...Josie and the Pussycats! Although the girl (Rachael Leigh Cook) in that one is the leading lady in "She's All That." *swoons* Mmmm...Ehtan Embry, Heath Ledger, and Freddie Prinze Jr. Definately my guys of the 90's. Oh how I miss the 90's. Man I could seriously sit here all day and connect the movies together by who was in them. They all have a kick ass cast!

Another thing I forgot was how great of a soundtrack that movie has. Here's the tracklist:

1. Graduate - Third Eye Blind (remix)
2. Can't Get Enough Of You Baby - Smash Mouth
3. Dammit - Blink 182
4. I Walked In - Brougham
5. Turn It Up - (remix) / Fire It Up - Busta Rhymes
6. Hit 'Em Wit Da Hee - Missy "Misdemeanor" Elliott/Lil' Kim/Mocha (remix)
7. Swing My Way - K.P. & Envyi (remix)
8. Flash Light - Parliament
9. It's Tricky - Run-DMC
10. High - Feeder
11. Tell Me What To Say - Black Lab
12. Farther Down - Matthew Sweet
13. Can't Hardly Wait - The Replacements
14. Umbrella - Dog's Eye View
15. Paradise City - Guns N' Roses

(Kommentiere Ich)

!LIFE SUCKS SO BLOODY MUCH! [04 Apr 2005|09:10pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

gosh darn it this project sucks something awful! I could have sworn that it was due on Tuesday but Karl assured me it was due today. *shrugs* Oh well I guess that I will have to deal with the consequences of my actions. Well, I'm going to finish up and prepare for another crappy day of school.

~welcome back to delaware~

(Kommentiere Ich)

Here in the Mother Land [31 Mar 2005|05:11pm]
[ mood | chill ]

So we are here in Nueva York and all I am doing is chilling here jammin to some Gwen. I am about to do a search for a store and then maybe we will do a bit of shopping. I am still very stoked about this whole FUSE thing and to make things better little Chazytha said he would record it for me on his Tivo since I was an excited dumbass and forgot to set the VCR. *shrugs* Such is life. Gosh darnit!!! I forgot all about my algebra project and I didn't even do the questions for english class! I have yet to look at them but we only have 5 problems to do and watch each of them have about 4 different sublevels to do. As of right now I guess I ought to do a bit of research for the fitness within basketball and math. Ciao peoples! I'll be sure to keep you updated about my rendezvous in la grande mansana.

(Kommentiere Ich)

Black Woman's Day Off! [30 Mar 2005|04:17pm]
[ mood | Stoked out of my arse! ]

I'm leaving for Nueva York in about 2 and a half hours and I am so stoked about wandering around the city. Ariane is coming along so yah know this trip is really going to kick! We plan on visiting a few choice museums we're going to visit the village so hopefully I will meet some awesome drag queens and pick up some cool accessories to show off once I get back. To make things tons cooler mom got us two spots to sit in on a live taping of Daily Download so all of you that have DirecTV (which is probably only 2 of you) check it out Friday evening at 6 and see if you spot me. I will probably tape it here. And we will do our best to act crazy and hopefully get Dillon or Marianela's attention to get the mic. Catch you guys flippin!

(Kommentiere Ich)

[ mood | emotionally damaged ]

I just saw you less than a week ago and for some reason it is killing me inside to be away from you. I don't know what I'm going to do once summer comes. One of my biggest fears is losing you to the insanity that is growing up. Not to mention the tight hold your mother has upon you. It seems that just about everything these days remind me of you. I crave those moments when we just hang out, cuddling you close, your head resting on my chest, telling me about my quickened heart beat. *tears washing over me* I refuse to give up and miss out. I won't just look back and wonder what could have been. Hopefully you will be right there by my side recalling our shitty teen years that brought us to the point of security in one another's lives. I've never missed you this badly before. My muscles tighten at the thought of you. I've been interested in other people but I can say that I have honestly fallen hard and only you can be there to help me back up. I need you more than ever and you feel the same about me. You're the only genuine person left in this world. Thinking back to our younger days you were always different from the world and you didn't care who knew about it. Although I don't deserve to be with you and I am constantly reminded by everyone else in the world I deserve some sort of chance to proove myself worthy.

(2 Kommentiert | Kommentiere Ich)

Yet Another Person That Cannot Handle My Honesty [30 Mar 2005|01:05pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I'm sure some of you may recall how I set up a gothicmatch account sometime ago like back during our freshman year. For those of you that don't, it was all meant to be a joke. But recently people have been sending me emails talking about how they want to meet me. My rule as someone who is online is: I WILL NEVER FUCKIN MEET YOU NO MATTER HOW MANY CAKES YOUR PROMISE ME! So this guy and I had the following conversation:

Me: Perhaps you could tell me a little about yourself?

Him: this is in my profile if yuo woulda scrolled down

hey my name is Jon. I like shooting pool and drinkin' at Cue &brew in
aberdeen, listening to music mostly Rock/rock metal/80's, comidy and horror movies, rock climbing, racketball, Art Work, writing/poetry, mountain climbing, Ghost Hunting and Research, photography, and Ancient History. I am not religious but I am very spiritual. I am what catholoks call a "pagan" i am not i am an Ancient. My gods are Egypt. I am here looking for friends maybe something more. I like taking things at a nice pace. My other name is NisuYasinSiAuset if you have a good eye aim for me.

Me: From what I have noticed it doesn't seem that this can work out between us. You have a few typos and I am somewhat of a tight ass when it comes to things such as that. I don't like to read emails and have to stop because an error caught my eye. So thanks for the wink, it was pleasant however we shouldn't begin a relationship of any sort.

Him: I appologize that you feel this way. On one hand My grammer happens to be almost perfect, my spelling on the other hand, well, what do you want from someone that has a learning disorder such as dyslexia? Thank you for the insult. And by the way spell check doesn't always work.


P.S.. I looked over this three times for errors :-)

[Can you find the errors in all of his responses? It's a fun game trust me! Answers: you, would have, comedy, racquetball, I am what catholoks call a "pagan" i am not i am an Ancient. <- this whole sentence is fucked up, My gods are Egypt. <- it should be Egyptian, many things ought to be lower case/capital letters, GRAMMAR]

Alright so I understand that maybe I was a little tough on him. But the fact of the matter is that he is about 23 and he cannot spell. How was I supposed to know that he is dyslexic? It's just sad that he looked over it three times and he still missed some shit. But anyways, if people want to make a big deal about my appearance I think that I deserve the liberty to be picky about grammatical errors. Fucking goths and not staying in school to enrich their minds! KNOWLEDGE IS POWER ASSHOLE!

(Kommentiere Ich)

Stolen From My Jewish Hoe: Jamie-san! [30 Mar 2005|12:38pm]
[ mood | sorrowful ]

X all that apply
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose (yeah and soda too, not to mention pool water and ice. lmao!)
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) made out in an elevator
( ) swore at your parents (as a little negro child I would be dead if I ever even cursed in their presence)
(x) kicked a guy where it hurts (many times, I had to defend myself at an early age because everyone thought it would be a good idea to pick on the tubby nerdy kid)
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
(x) been to a casino
() been skydiving (someday soon)
() been bungie-jumping
() broken a bone
() skinny-dipped (I never really had the opportunity)
(x) skipped school (all the time)
(x) flashed someone
(x) saw a therapist
(x) done the splits (when I was younger, can't anymore but working on it)
(x) played spin the bottle
() gotten stitches (I would have had stitches if I actually told mom Ariane and I were playing with the "Leatherman tool" but instead I just bled a lot and eventually cried and mom was angry but I refused to go to the doctor)
(x) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour (yeah when I had a ton of cake and double stuffed oreos
(x) bitten someone
() been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) crashed into a friend's car (yeah but it was on my bike if that counts...lol)
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
() shoplifted (I never had to honestly, nor did I want to)
() been fired
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back..(THAT SEEMS TO BE THE STORY OF MY FUCKIN LIFE!)
(x) stole something from your job (I'm a pen freak)
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend ((AGAIN THE STORY OF MY LIFE! No one can appreciate honesty these days))
(x) had a crush on a teacher (not a crush per say but Mr. Z's fake german accent was pretty cool back in the 9th grade)
() been to Europe
() slept with a co-worker (probably someday)
(x) been married (I was married to fat kid)
(x) gotten divorced (I got a divorce from fat kid because he was raping our children...and I took him for all he was worth...a can o' spam!)
(x) had children (I have 50 something kids and all without sperm! Yeah Boy!!! [flava flav])
(x) saw someone die (yeah too many times)
() been to Africa
(x) Driven over 400 miles in one day
() Been to Canada
(x) Been to Mexico (twice)
(x) Been on a plane
() Thrown up in a bar
(x) Purposely set a part of myself on fire (good times with an "axe" can)
(x) Eaten Sushi
() Been snowboarding (not yet but me and the jewish hoe will have to go sometime)
(x) Been to a moto cross show
(x) lost a child (yeah I lose kids all the time, probably because I stop talking to people, or because we are all maturing and seperating ourselves or something to that effect)
(x) gone to college (I only go there for campus visits and tutoring)
() graduated college
(XXXXXXXXXXXXX) love someone or miss someone right now {MORE THAN YOU KNOW RIGHT NOW!}

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